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It's 10.30 am and I haven't slept fot the past 26 hours. Well, I was suppose to go out with Puffyla today but she couldn't make it. I don't blame her, family is definately more important. Well, guess I'll see you another time then.

here's a letter to our dearest world,

Dear World,
Fuck you. All my life, I have been trying to make others happy so your crappy piece of shit wouldn't seem so fucking useless. I mean just look at you. You have more haters in the planet then people loving each other. Grudges, revenge and hatred. What the fuck is wrong with you? I have given alot to you all my life and I'm proud to say that being me is not as easy as it seems. But all I ask of you is for me to at least be happy in this shithole of yours. Why is it so difficult just to be happy? Fuck the money, fuck the fame or whatever shit. You don't need to be the richest and the the most famous person on earth just to find bliss inside. Why is it so fucking difficult for me to be with someone I adore? Someone whom I miss? Someone whom I LOVE. Seriously, what the fuck have I done wrong? You took away alot from me. From the person whom I thought I loved to my own fucking self-esteem. What the fuck? It's self-esteem for crying out loud. Leaving nothing behind? Seriously world, you diserve two middles up. _l_ _l_ . For all the hate and suffer I felt, I've been keeping it inside and enduring every piece of shit you throw at me and with the thought that the grass is greener on the otherside. But everytime I get there, there's nothing more than a shitfull of a wasteland. This isn't the first time this has happened to me and sure as hell I have a feeling it won't be the last. I feel like giving up. Now to a point whereby I wanna fuck everything and just care about myself. Fuck self-respect and everything. No wonder everybody is this planet seem to be a sorry shitface full of puke. All is to be blame it you, you goddam sorry piece of trash. Your hatred, suffering has cause this once lovely place to now just plain shit. Yet, even so, why am I still taking this piece of shit from you? You ought to ask yourself, "Why the hell am I doing this for? Lets just fuck eveything and be like everyone else cause nobody gives a damm anymore. Everyone is gonna die a sorry son of a bitch." Why am I still going on. You wanna know why you fucker? Cause I believe somewhere in that heart of her's lies a place for me. So if you wanaa take that away from me, I swear, I'll be the coldest sadass on this fucking planet.

PS: Puffyla, this isn't meant for you. I just venting my anger out alright? I'm not angry at you and I don't blame you. When shit happens in the family, families are more important to you than anything else. Truth be told cause I don't see the point of hiding it anymore and these past few days, shit has been happening to me to a point where I just feel like giving up. I never see this coming but Puffyla, you mean alot to me and these past few days has never been brighter because of you. I know you said take it slow but I have never been moved so much by a person before. After all this crap that I'm going through, I'm going to say this before I lose the chance to do so.

Puffyla, I LOVE YOU.

There, I said it. After my break up with my ex, I never thought I'm ever gonna get myself together again but you prove me wrong and I'm fully aware that this could either make or break me. But with all the shit I'm facing just to make the day not hurt until I can crawl back in my bed and hopefully in the future, next to you again, I guess it doesn't matter if I'm gonna be broken down again.

I know it's been downhill for you too. But now, I'm holding out my had to you. Will you take my hand and start over? Forget everyone and everything that you've been through be happy together. I cannot promise that everyday will be full of happiness. I mean, surely you will quarrel of the stupidest thing in a relationship right? But this is what I promise you: I'll try to make everyday the happiest for you.

I've done almost everything I can,
"If I could, I would. So tell me if I should"
- How Bout Enough - A Vacant Affair

It's your call. =)






I'm going jamming with Yazid, Mahatir and Shu tomorrow. Hahaha. It's been a long time since I last saw her. =)

I'm not sure what song(s) we're jamming actually. Hahaha. But I guess it doesn't
matter. =P

Yesterday I bumped into Arina at city music. Haha. I thought nobody goes to that part of the world. Oh and guess who else I bumped into? For Better Endings. Hahaha. Cool shit!!!!

Oh, I'm meeting Puffyla tmwr too!!!! I cannot wait!!! Hahaha. I MISS YOU LOTS!!!!






Hey balls!!!! Jamming was great yet again. 7 Oris done and 8th ori is underway. I managed to do a few guitar swings. But most off the time, I end up hitting something. At least something not someone. 0_o

Ok, I was soo relieved to see Puffyla online this afternoon. Hey girl, you have no idea how relieved I am to see you online today. It's ok if you cannot make it, I understand your situation. =) Try to go out with me again someday soon ok? I really really really really really really really miss you!

Thinkin of this made me remember back then when I spent the nights outside my house cause I overshot the curfew. Well I guess so much have cahnged since then. Now it's more of, be home before 12midnight. Nowdays, I find myself rushing off back home. Mainly because I cannot wait to meet Puffyla online. Everyday, I always look foward for this. I know that this is all in God's hands and so I'm really wishing for the best and hope it happens. =)

I'm helping Kin with the tickets tomorrow.






18 hours to go until jamming. Damm I miss my band. Finally we're jamming again. Haha.
Kin, you better jump this time or I'll personally kick your ass. Oh and go drink all the green tea i gave you. You better not fall sick or I'll go to your house and tickle you until you pee in your pants. Okay guys, time to kick ASS

Hmmm. Puffyla isn't online today. Hopefully she calls me tomorrow and tag along for jam.

Ok, so far everything's going ok for me. A few bumps here and there but nothing too bad. I guess certain times in life, shit happens and shit doesn't happen randomly. Maybe it's just the way it should be you know? If someone doesn't make it or if someone had plans or maybe last minute changes. I guess it all happens for a reason.

"There's a time and place for eveything, there's a reason why certain people meet"
-MEST






Well, I was suppose to meet Kin and Hisham today. The plan was that we accompany Hisham to the airport tofind some part-time job. But apprently somobdy slept through the day -___-

Ok, so we went to City Hall for breakfast and proceeded to Music Garage to settle some gig stuff. There's a gig going on at the 3rd of May so do come down and support alright? The poster is to be updated.

Anyway, why does everybody on MSN offline on me today? Hahaha. Ok. I managed to chat with Puffyla for a while, she said something was pissing her off. Then after we chatted for awhile, she suddenly went offline. Girl, I hope everythings alright there. Call me asap alright?

Oh and by the way, I've found the cordless thingy but it freaking hell costs around $400 plus. I rather invest on an epiphone. But then again......






Finally Puffyla is online!!!! God I MISS HER SOOOOOOOO MUCH. Hahahaa.

Went to penin with Joey and Harry today, I wanted to fnd those wireless cable but damm, bloody expensive!!!! $300!!!! Me and Harry then went to bugis searching for the cables while cracking sick snow white jokes. Sadly, most of the guitar shops are close but that really passes the time.

Kin, I know you're stress and whatnot but you gotta hangon alright? Don't be too hard on yourself just because we don't have the big break. Just have fun and enjoy while it last alright? Insnt that punk rock?

To Puffyla, hey girl =) You seriously make the nights much easier to get through each day =) You're not just any ordinary girl cause I don't believe in coincidences. =) I guess that's why I fell for you. I MISS YOU GIRL. Go out with me again someday kay????






Hey guys, hahaha, just to show you guys cause i got bored, don't ask why.

Guitar Swings!!!!



Somehow, I tried it with cables but it kept getting tangled around my neck. Haha, I can imagine during a gig, the cable getting tangled around your neck and suffocating and most probably die.... Hahaha. Note to self: I need a wireless cable.






I was damm restless today for certain reason I don't really understand. But hey girl, you made me smile!!!! Oh GOD! I have never been this bored. I guess I miss school, my friends and uttermostly her. KIN!!!! Hang out with me soo kay???

I had a burst of inspiration today, I wrote a song for her.

here i am, i'm waiting for midnight
to finally talk to a girl i like
her name is (oops, not now =P), she's a cool slamming rockstar
she's an angel form above the stars

is it okay if i told her today
i've been thinking about her everyday
would she stay or go away
will i see her everyday

when she walks the birds all fly
when she smiles, the sun will shine
when she sleeps the world is peaceful
no war or hate, she's beautiful

i wonder how it's like, to hold her hand
i wonder if i will get that chance
to hold her in my arms and say i love you
and hear her say that i love you too

woah,
you're beautiful

Hope you love it girl. =)

I just cannot wait to put your picture in this blog and myspace. I miss you. =)






Oh boy... Girl, I think I just fallen for you, seriously. Thanks alot for hanging out with me this morning. I really enjoyed my time =) You know who you are right hot stuff? Hahaha. Even though it's just simply sitting and talking makes me realise something...

Being in a realtionship isn't about what you do with your partner or what fancy dinner or money you spent. Sometimes just sitting down and chatting could pass the time and make you forget the world. Sometimes, I feel that we need to step back and appreciate the small things in life cause they actually make a big difference.

Hey, I understand what you're going through so take your time. But not too long kay??? =)






Well, I've rewired my guitar and guess what? I got new straplocks!!! Yea!!!! At around Kin's house where we were sessioning, I asked Kin, "Kin, lets have another go at guitar swings." and she said "No way, my chip is already enough." Well, being a jackass, I had another attempt on the guitar swing and guess what? Now I'm swinging my guitar to heaven baby!!!! Cool or what?

Lots of things has been happening lately but there's one thing that you girls should know. You might want to have a ideal thinking that when a guys likes you, he's gonna like you and wait until you are suddenly avalible to them. Well here's the truth.

Guys can wait for you all their lives but if ever they feel that the other party somehow lose intrest or that no matter what they do, there's no two-way connection or they feel that the girl makes them lose their trust, they will still wait.

As humans, guys cannot wait forever so, when a certain person comes along and somehow the attention is being diverted away, guys won't wait any longer.

Simple as that.

It's all about the early bird gets the worm.

If you lead on the guy for too long and play hard-to-get, most probably the guy can stand the first few times maybe for the next several times until another girl opens a window of opportunity and leads him to a clearer view of the treasure.

Note to the girls, it's good that you bury your treasure nice and deep but don't you think you're alittle bit harsh on them? If it's too much of a work for the guys, they are just gonna give up.

If you want them, just let them know. Assuming that he's the right person for you.

If you're confuse, get your feelings together ASAP and think hard. Guys do not like when you say "I cannot give my answer now, I dunnoe weather I like you or not." to a simple yes or no question. Say something like "Gimme a day to think about it." Seriously, more than a week is unreasonably long. I mean, how often do you even think about them and setting things in order?

If you do not want them, just say no. Sure it's a little bit hard but put it in a nice way. Seriously, rather than just beating around the bush and wasting each other's time....

Bottom line is,
Girls, Guys can wait for you BUT they cannot wait forever. =)






ok, got some stuff to vent today.

Firstly, to the idiot who rewired my jack. KNNCCB. If you dunnoe how to rewire my guitar, letme do it you bloddy idiot. The damm bloody thing came out again and what do you mean, "Uh sorry, we don't have spare parts here." kepale bapak dier. Then call yourselves a shop that sells instruments. WTF la, i'm bringin Sidney to Davis tmorrow.

Ok next, to this certain IDIOT who nuged me for no apprent reason and then suspectically blocked my off msn. Go get a life bitch, you know who you are. You cannot be such a attention seeker can you? CB. Go find another IDIOT to fuck and this time make sure he really does.

Ok...

On the lighter side,

I'll most likely get a new strap lock tomorrow, that means more guitar flips balls!

Oh and jamming yesterday was the bomb man, we practically did a whole set in 30mins to more than satisfactory levels =D
Damm bloody tight. I like =)

Oh plus I just gotten back my Sims 2! Thanks Kin! My sis is really bugging me for it. Now lets see, how should I mass murder the Silverton family?
Burning? Drowning? Starving? Hmmmmm......
Wahahahahahaa, Fannie Silverton will die very very very very slowly.
Wahahahahahaha.

Oh yea, Somehow, now I owe Syirah a mcspicy -.-"






It's 2:30pm yo! and I cannot wait to go out later at around 4pm. =D

Just a random note. Somehow I fell that doing signs to people, taking pictures of it and posting it up at your myspace or whatever is downright LAME. It's like WTF. Then you go saying something like "Look! -insertnamehere- Wrote my name in ink!!!! WOW!!!!" -________________-

Please please please tell me you're not that deprive. It's to show that you have besties just by writitng your "friends" names on paper???? C'mon. The next thing you know, they are backstabbing you or whatever shit, I dunnoe. Best friends are judged by sticking through them throughout the years and when you guys go through a period of silence, you'll somehow in one way or another link back with that person and makes you wonder. "how the fuck did I ended up with you again????" hahaha
;)

Best friends forever give or take! =)






Many people have been asking me to do this so yea,



TAADAA!!!! hahaha, me without specs. Most probably Kin is gonna disturb me. haiz. haha but nevermind.

Ok, today wasn't so eventful. Well had to wake up early to go jemputan. So I got in the car and we headed out. I was expecting it to be like in Punggol or Sengkang or whatever but turns out to be just a 5 min walk away from my house. -.-" people! Save the earth, no need to burn that precious oil and ruin the enviroment. (Zee mcm paham aje)

But me and my sis actually went for a movie after that. We watched the spiderwick chronicles. Seriously, I was expecting it to be a little bit inaccurate compared to the book but this is like way off sia! holy crap. But it was enjoyable, though it's kinda short and boring. But it kills time =)

Oh while in the movies, someone unexpectally msged me. haha. guess who? Namira!!! haha. -.-" At least that put a smile on my face. haha. Seriously, she is just like Jenny from The Click Five. -.-""""""

On a lighter note, Cry_Wolf movie which I watched last nite on my lappie was the balls man! Damm cool, with all the twist, turns and curves..... mmmmm.... curves *snaps back into reality* yea... like I was saying. Haha, I wonder, what should I watch next...






WAAAA. I think I'm becoming a big time slacker already man. Lets see
today,

Woke up
Eat
Bathe
Meet Kin
Meet Hisham
Eat
Play Guitar
and now, about to sleep

Well at least I met Hisham. It's been a year I since I last saw him. Well he's still the same at least. But now more cheerful. Thumbs up for that. =)

We session with Qahar today. Got all of my originals right. Cool. Seriously, I think Shooting Stars song is really the bomb man along side Nightmare At 508. haha.

God damm la.I need a NEW strap! My guitar fell again. Thank god nothing happened to it. It's just the stupid strap.

I seriously cannot wait for the next jam session! haha. Really miss palying as a full band. Hopefully we're tight.






Last day of attachment!!!!! Feels so great to finally be free and guess what? I MADE IT TO YEAR 3 BAlLS!!!!! hahahahahaha. =D

Me, Za, Joel and Mirza went to some cafe, BREEKS if i'm not wrong and hell did I had the sugar rush of my life. hahaha. I jabed an overdose and tucked in to some serious ice cream. hahaha. Remember guys, you did not see me eat.

After that we went walking around and there was this crazy sale selling VCDs at 5 for 10 bucks!!!! Believe that? Of course, they were old school 90s movies. Hahaha. 90s old school? Maybe in this generation.

I'm suppose to meet Kin for session and work on our 7th and 8th ori and at the same time recap the rest of the oris. But this MAKNENEK last minute cannot make it. Hahaha, well i guess we should have left earlier and the we might just avoid her mum. Oh well.... =)

Oh btw, I bought myself 5 different genres of movies, I wonder which should I watch first?
Should I laugh and puke my dinner out with a comedy movie
or
emotionally rape and toture myself with a romance movie
or
Inspire myself and most probably slip into depression knowing I'll never achieve unrealistic goals with a based-on-a-true-story movie
or
Jump around like a maniac with a Suspense thriller movie
or
Probably I should just watch a horror movie and pee in my pants.

oh the dilemma

I know!!!! I'll ask Kin!

Zee: "kin, which would you rather have me do? puke, emotionally toture myself, jump around, slip into depression or pee in my pants?"

Kin: " pee in your pants"

Zee: "thanks =)"

So here I go haha. =)






WOOOO! Today's jamming was unexpectly great even though Qahar and Dan couldn't make it. The 6th original for Down One Mile is roughly there and there's a 7th ori coming up. PS: Finish up the solo for the 6th ori.

Sweet.

Oh and about the date tomorrow. Well, she hasn't massaged me back so I guess it just didn't work out. Well, seems I was right again! Hahaha.

Somehow, I seem to take notice that more girls are actually looking at me. Hmmm =) Which is a good thing! Or a bad thing too. It could either mean

"Damm, this guy is cute"

Or

"Damm, this guy is wierd"

Just to keep my self-esteem at a Happy-Go-Lucky mood, I'm gonna ASSUME that they are thinking about the first one. =D.

Shut up Kin.

Hahaha, I know I've been babbling alot about my love life and my band. I guess that my life revolves so closely around them. Oh and I'm not so good at eleborating stuffs so yea.

Ok, I'm suppose to be gathring information about some drug at the Emergency Resusitation Trolly. But the internate is worthless.

Ironic that they can put up lots of porn websites but cannot put up a simple website explaining the use of e-drugs and the indications.

Oh! speaking of drugs, I lost my insulin injection. damm balls. Arrgh!!!! BUT luckily, I have a spare ^^v

Za just called me and confirmed my doubts, yeap, I'm not going out with her. Oh well.

I always like to end my posts on the lighter side of things, so tomorrow or today actually is the last day of attachment! hahahah FREEDOM BABY!!!!!

Oh plus I'm meeting Qahar and dear nenek Kin this Saturday for session and jam on Mon, most probably at Semei again. Around 8+??? So if you guys wanna tag along and give us constructive feedback while be entertained by us, do drop me an e-mail, PM of just a simple TAG. =)






Oh well, I'm done with work today. Somehow work has incredibly slacked for the past few days. To the extend when me and Za went hyper during the last 2 ours. Seeing Za trying to hide behind a fire extinguisher box, hahaha, even that, eveybody didn't notice her. Which was an achievement considering her size, haha.

Hahaha, it's been raining the whole day and I wonder how is it going for Kin and gang. Hahaha, they were suppose to go picnic-ing today. Hahahaha, should have seen Kin's semangatness to go. How was the rain Kin? hahaha

On a better side, I somehow figured out that my EX-girlfriend's new boyfriend in Australia is still seeing his old girlfriend. C'mon -insert name here- you don't have to deny it. He didn't set you as top friends, he didn't mention about you in his profile and his girlfriend sent him a "I LOVE YOU" comment. How does it feel to be on the receiving end of this one now huh? I YOUR FACE! and I didn't have to do anything, which makes it sweeter. Hate to say it but I TOLD YOU SO. =)

So anyway, I'm suppose to be going on a date this Friday, with Za's sister. YOUNGER sister. =)
Somehow, I don't think this is gonna work out. Hahaha, I have my reasons. Nope, this has nothing to do with my EX. Oh yeah, we were suppose to be going out on a midnight movie with her close friend. Which means more money for taxi fare and less attention from her to me -.-" I hate being broke. Hahaha, anyway, I'm gonna say this again, cause I just feel like it, don't ask me why.

I'm SINGLE and VERY AVALIBLE!

hahaha!!

-___-






Hmm, there was a post on Kin and Syirah's blog that looked kinda intresting, so I guess I'll do it too...

7 Random Facts About Me:

1.I'm a guitarist
2.I wanna grow fat and cure AIDS
3.I want a daugther
4.I'm still a virgin
5.I'm single and VERY AVALIBLE =)
6.I love cloudy days
7.I'm clingy in a relationship


7 Things That Scare Me:

1.Dogs
2.Lightning
3.My jeans falling down while i'm jumping on stage
4.One of my patients falling
5.Medication error
6.Failing exams
7.Dying of diabectic coma

7 Random Music Of The Moment:

1.Down One Mile
2.The Ataris
3.Mad Caddies
4.Marchbook Romance
5.Senses Fail
6.Pug Jelly
7.New Found Glory


7 Things I Say The Most:

1."Ah yer..."
2."Kepale bapak kau"
3."babiturates betol"
4."kepale hotak kau"
5."eh giler"
6."Geletek kau sapai kau terkencing baru tau"
7."waduh"


7 People Whom I Want To Say "I Love You" To Right Now:

1.Cameron Diaz
2.Zahidah
3.Kin
4.Namira
5.My Sis
6.Arina
7.=(


7 Things I Did For The First Time

1.Swing my guitar in public
2.Took taxi from east point home
3.Walked off cause my mum pissed me off
4.Ignore handphone messages and calls
5.Save money without any particular reason
6.Wore my new glasses
7.Code blue


7 People To Do This:

1.Kin
2.Mirza
3.Arina
4.Syirah
5.Fay
6.Does it eveb matter?
7.Cause I'm short of people so i guess, to everybody reading this.






I did something stupid today. Haha. Me and kin were hanging out together with our guitars when somehow the topic on swinging guitars came out and we decided to give it a try. So kin went first, guess what happened....

She managed to swing 2 times sucessfully, on the third time, her guitar went swinging away and she ended up chipping a big part of her guitar. Lucky for her, it was on the back of her guitar. hahaha.

When I attempted to swing my guitar, it went flying the first time and landed head first (hearbreak). Lucky my guitar didn't chip as bad as i expected it to be. Haha, take a look.



Cool. I don't think I would want to get it repaired. So like in 40 years time when i hang my guitar on the wall, I'll be telling my grandsons and daugthers "Boy boy, girl girl, last tyme atok use to swing atok's guitar with nenek Kin you know, see the guitar have a dent." hahaha.

so that makes like 1 sucessful guitar swing and 2 unsucessful guitar swing. -.-" Gosh, I to get better guitar strap locks. Then I'll be swinging my way to heaven baby! \m/

Ok.... On a lighter note,

I've done new glasses balls!!!!



I look so much better right? This cost me like $181 but I think it's worth it. I'm thinking of getting green contact lenses. Hahahaha. Now hopefully with these new glasses, I'd stand a better chance in scoring chicks =) Hahaha.






Just reflecting back ont the past years, how my guitar actually evolved. My first electric guitar was an old family guitar. An old Aria Pro 2 actually. guess it's even older than I am, hahaha. i remember, the bridge had a fissure straight down the middle and the pick ups had feed back that'll make you go shouting like a lunatic.

Somehow along the road, i managed to get a new guitar, a Yamaha Pacifica.



which I think is kinda cool cause like it's damm versatile.

I remember by then I had decent guitar skills to play rythm. haha. had my first gig with that guitar.



haha. Sweet. As years go by, I started to customize my guitar. From string to the looks. check this out =)



the B**** thingy is deliberate, dedicated to my EX-GIRLFRIEND. Haha, this one is good. If you notice, there's like a hot lady in between the pickups. It's like while you are playing you're like stroking her, haha, like malays call it, "gentel" hahahahaha.

"Playing guitar is like having sex"

The other stickers are like random stuff that I use to express myself. Kinda love my guitar. Sidney! That's her name. I'm thinking on investing in an Epiphone SG. Must be an SG. Somehow now i'm playing lead guitar for my band, DOWN ONE MILE. Check us out at www.myspace.com/downonemile and at the same time add us up! =)






Hey guys, this is my new blog, hopefully, i can keep it updated unlike the old one, just for your amusement : www.rockinprogress.blogspot.com

so yea, thanks alot to my sis for assisting me in getting this blog skin up. i'm a doofus when it comes to techno stuff. now my sister attempting to irritate me by singging some sicko shark eating human song. -.-"

kin, if you are reading this, TAG ME BODOH, hahaha =)

Name; Zee SkinnyFries
Gender: Male
Bio:
I'm just your average guy. I don't label myself and i hate people labeling me
Somehow life sucks for me most of the time, oh well, better luck next time i guess
my lucky charms somehow revolves around my good friends:
Kin
Zahidah

Currently not single and not available
I Love Her

Likes:
Music
Guitars
Movies
Gigs
Chilling
Chuck Taylors
Macbeth =D
Black, Red, White

Hates:
M&Ms
Techno
Stereotypes
Last Minute Change Of Plans
Non-Understanding Parents
Two-Timers
Liars
Backstabbers
Being Broke

e-mail: corrupt_66@hotmail.com

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Julie
Qahar
Syirah
Zan
Arina
Darsh
Mirza
Mahatir
C-LA
Hazirah
Pamela
Down One Mile

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